...how hard I am blushing right now. Lalalalalalala!

Where am I? home Feeling... flirty Compelled listening... nil Define... # flirting, moments, study

I have some kind of anti-intuition going on where whenever I call e_dan, he's right in the middle of something. I'm actually completely charmed by this, in an amused kind of way :)

I also tried to tell a joke about being in the middle of something but I think it didn't quite work :P Practise! ^_^

Where am I? home Feeling... amused Compelled listening... nil Define... # amusement, communication, moments

Voting is open to members of Convergence 2 and Swancon 33 (2008) members.

Details have been emailed out, but if you missed it, or are interested then comment and I'll pass details on to you.

I'm about to go to bed, I'm feeling tired, but have had a spark of happy energy running around my system from unexpectedly chatting to a loved one. I may even have had some coherence and made some sense, perhaps was even useful.

My care is slowly creeping back.

My rant on why the awards matter is still forthcoming. As is the possibility of another one that looks at the reasoning behind the distinction between fan and professional, and the connotations therein. (This via black_samvara who also mentioned cupidsbow)

Maybe I should do a FAQ on how to care for your local fannish volunteer (ala caring for your introvert etc).

Where am I? home Feeling... exhausted Compelled listening... "Casey" - Darren Hayes Define... # awards, ditmars, fandom, moments, swancon 2008, thoughts, voting

Conversations with good friends are wonderful, and a great pick me up :)

Where am I? home Feeling... cheerful Compelled listening... nil Define... # friends, moments, social

There seems to be a number of them recently... I'm not sure what to make of it. So much has happened this year, and by no means has all of it been good... in fact there's been some downright awful things. But I'm having trouble remembering them at the moment because everything's feeling so damned good!

I know many others will say that 2007 has been a bad year, or the worst year since x, or the worst year period... but I think overall mine's come out a win.

( Weekend of awesome... )

Now I'm off to shop with the boy before meeting up with editormum and girliejoines which will be all kinds of awesome!

My world is tinged in rose right now... I love it.

Where am I? home Feeling... very happy Compelled listening... "Cosmic" - Kylie Minogue (new album) Define... # 2007, carols by candlelight, moments, social, weekend

Madness, and I’m smiling to myself. It’s too good to share, and too good not to speak, and ramble filling the air with the words of my senses. I’m disconnected from the conventional reality that wants of me, and taunts me. I’m dancing in a state of the surreal, darkness and softness, sensuality, all threads in a weave that draws me into itself, I am warm and smiling softly to myself for all that I cannot find the words to share.

Where am I? work Feeling... enthralled Compelled listening... "Chasing Cars" - Snow Patrol Define... # moments, sensuality, transcending

Invent a memory of me and post it in the comments. It can be pretty much anything you want, so long as it's something that's never happened. Then, if you wish, post this to your journal and see what people would like to remember of you, only the universe failed to cooperate in making it happen so they had to make it up instead.

Where am I? work Feeling... thoughtful Compelled listening... "Who would have thought" - Darren Hayes Define... # meme, moments, thoughts

which was wonderful.

i could list any number of reasons why the night was great, but really...

just have to smile, at being lucky enough to be friends with someone in particular, i'm just having a long moment of appreciating the way they mean the world to me, and how grateful i am for it, and how surprised i am to have it, how lucky i feel... just...

whatever series of events happened to result in this?

big thank you to the universe.

it may not follow a contract, but i'm sure sometimes it listens.

icon chosen because i don't use it nearly often enough, for the amount of love and care that went into its making :)

Where am I? home Feeling... grateful Compelled listening... sleeping puppy Define... # friendship, moments

There's this section of this song I listen to quite frequently that has a little bit of chorus that goes:

"oooo-ooo---oooh"

Which makes me purse my lips and wiggle my head in an 'ooo ooo ooooh' fashion.

Where am I? work Feeling... amused Compelled listening... "Opportunity Nox" - Roxette Define... # happy, moments, music

Went well, K was personable and charming - he got a good feeling off it and there's only one other person they're considering.

Hopefully he's the one they like the best, certainly he's impressed with the place.



Also, we had a lovely dinner at Box 3 tonight together and chatted about 'stuff', it was beautiful and amazing and I am smiling just to remember it :)

He's tired as, and I have a case of the sleepies too!


I can't wait till tomorrow night and the Cursive performance at His Majesty's with lady_niav and justadecoy

Where am I? home Feeling... ecstatic Compelled listening... nil Define... # amazing conversations, connectionism, k job, loving k, moments, piaf

'Moments'


You know, those tiny little things, you can't see them coming and yet you can never deny it when they're THERE. They don't call before they come, they just arrive and catch you up in them, sometimes leaving you breathless.

What's more, not only am I susceptible to these little things, but I adore it. I'm fascinated by it.

What captures me and fascinates me so about these 'moments'. I think the more I understand, the less I'll get it.

Every time I see certain people, there's a 'moment', and despite the together exterior, trust me, inside I'm utterly floored and enthralled and caught up in it, I just want it to last forever. Every time I think of those moments, the feeling resurfaces, so I guess... in a way, it does continue on.

There are books, and movies that I read/see and time and again they'll draw me in and wham! There's the 'moment' and I'm eddying within it drawn to all the shiny emotion.

Sometimes, it happens when I meet someone for the first time. I remember it happened when I met K, I remember it happened when I met ascetic_hedony, I remember it happened when I met, japester and I remember that it happened when I met black_samvara. Most recently it happened when I met my cousin Nicole for the first time... Some people are wishes come true. The other loves in my life are gifts I could never have forseen or had the wisdom and forbearance to ask for, I'm just glad I recognised how brilliant and shiny and amazing they are, I'd be a poorer person for it otherwise.

So many moments, so often, and I just can't get enough of them. More than that... I wish I could share the sensation with you... but that kind of sharing doesn't manifest often. I remember the times when it has, mostly with K, and then with one other.

Why does this occur to me now? Because I was watching 'Practical Magic' and happened into one of those moments. You know, one of the final scenes, when they're banishing the bad man's ghost? The sisters, and the circle.

Last night it was Dirty Dancing. The scene where the three of them are dancing together? The very cute scene when she's parodying the teaching style? When he says 'No one puts Baby in a corner'? All 'moments', all happy and swoony and caught up mynxii.

...I don't quite know how to end this. I feel like I've opened up far more than I meant to... and yet, I can't help but be a little glad along with the nervous... I'm amongst the best afterall.

This is where I run off to find something else 'momenty' to watch.

Where am I? home Feeling... enthralled and...nervous Compelled listening... nil Define... # moments, movies, social, specialness

* Lethtal-Nethalm gnashes his teeth.
* Mikajla shivers
mmmm :)
* Mikajla offers you the other wrist
* Lethtal-Nethalm grins faintly, and plucks it obligingly up with the flat of his palm, supporting it while lips lathe across. :p
* Mikajla watches, not intent, just feeling, and watching the feeling
* Lethtal-Nethalm slowly, lightly, lets his mouth part, breath warm and wet across bare skin, until the tiniest prick of flat toothpoints form crescents of indendations.
* Mikajla mmmmmmms softly, feeling her body begin to relax, feeling the potential sharpness of your teeth against my wrist, feel my pulse against your tongue
* Lethtal-Nethalm 's tongue wetly...lazily, circles the strained flesh just behind his teeth, comforting it briefly as her life pumps subtly against his open mouth. Tucking his free hand behind her wrist, in a slow...inexorable movement, jaws begin to latch closed, squeezing the captured bit of flesh between his teeth. Harder..harder.
* Mikajla lets her eyes close, relaxing completely to his hand, trusting completely to his teeth, welcoming the pain as it begins, letting it wash over her, changing to something new and intense, her breathing caught a little, evidence of enjoyment, arousal, a sound escapes my throat, neither moan nor wimper, nor even both, just pleasure and subtle encouragement
* Lethtal-Nethalm tucks his lips in closely, so that the points of his teeth...digging in, firmly, to bruising, denting skin, peek only barely from the skin sheating them. Breathing firmly through his nose, it washes warm...moist against her forearm as teeth sinch...tiny, little bits by bits tighter, straining her skin to breaking...teetering on that threshold.
* Mikajla looks to you, watching and noticing everything, movement as you breathe, feeling my wrist cradled in your hand, sensing your hunger, your power, never moving, just letting her mind and soul bathe in the pain you gift
* Lethtal-Nethalm 's mouth is latched, dangerously tight...so close to tasting crimson, so stingingly, achingly near punching the sharpness of eyelet teeth through her wrist. For a scarce, brief moment, raw brutality is seen in his bite. And, then...with the same, tender slowness with which he'd approached, his jaw relaxes, teeth leave the small, welted indentations formed by them, and he lowers her arm, panting faintly...
* Mikajla looks to my arm, smiling at the darkened welt, the muscle as it begins to bruise, still awash with sensation, lifting it slowly, turning it to show you the perfection of the wound, a warm 'mmmmmm' of pleasure and approval my only sound, unwilling to despoil the moment as i smile to you, respect and affection and more... trust in evidence
* Lethtal-Nethalm lets the point of his tongue wet one corner of his mouth before leaning in, pressing a brief, light, tender kiss to her cheek - start contrast to the viciousness that'd left her dull, throbbing...deliciously bruised. Lips curl around a smile, briefly.. "Mm, I've got to sleep."


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I have the perfect circle of a most exquisite bite upon my wrist, i'm enthralled and in rapture over it... enjoyed every painful second, remember it vividly.

The above however was a conversation with a friend, about becoming a Dom, and me proving a point to him, that he'd be very very good at it...

*smiles*

two special moments... both sitting happily in the forefront of my mind right now, special moments i wanted to share...

Feeling... touched Compelled listening... Rapture - Vaiio/Lio Define... # moments, sensualism